I had plans to share something different today: how to simplify meal preparation or how easy it can be to eat well on a budget...
But this keeps popping up for me, so I will let you in on a personal process I have been sitting in for a few months now.
So back to butterflies. I've been writing a lot to help me understand and accept and embrace all of the shifts I am experiencing. It began in Costa Rica and I have been in it ever since. The hardest part has been being patient. To not run or hide. But to just be. To cry often. To give myself a voice. To listen. And to trust. During one particularly dark moment I could physically feel all of this in my rib cage. It was raw and real. Something was tearing, and yet, healing. A dear friend said it could be my the wisdom of my heart being accepted by my head (she said it much more eloquently than that, but you get the idea).
Sometimes, we have to be patient. We have to sit in our pain/grief/confusion and embrace it. We have to seek the beauty in it. We have to feel the raw realness of it. Pema Chodron refers to this as a Tibetan Buddhist ritual known as charnal ground meditation (really great stuff, I encourage you to read any and all of her books). At other times, we can act out, sob for hours, dance, drink, and run like the wind on a cold, cloudy day. This has been my experience in my chrysalis. And I am not done yet. I can feel my wings though. And that feels really light, and liberating, and oh I know they are beautiful and made for exploring.
And for sharing love and light, support and hope. And food pictures. Lots of food pictures.
I may share more of this journey in the future, but for now, it is my own sacred experience.
I encourage you to honor yours. Do whatever you have to do to connect to those places inside of you. Dig deep, tear them open, and sit there. Find the beauty in it. Be grateful to be a part of something so real and powerful. Be compassionate with yourself and your process. Trust the timing and the signs of the Universe.
Have you experienced something similar?
Are you tired of repressing certain feelings?
Is there a greater knowing that you are having trouble connecting with?
I am here for you.
#marchon #letitbeeasy #giveyourselfpermission #YDYG