I am a huge believer in the idea that everything happens for a reason. I decided this at a very young age and have stuck to it since. As I move through life and think of the people I am growing away from, as well as those whom I have become so close to, I can't help but be in awe.
Everyone is sent to us. It may fleeting. It may be eye contact, a "thank you", simply holding a door open. It could be a yoga teacher, a server in a restaurant, or that person who helps you at the shoe store. It may last 10 minutes, or 10 years. But the point is, there is a lesson and a gift in every exchange. Don't underestimate what you can learn from or share with a stranger. Don't be afraid to smile, ask a question, or pay a compliment.
Sometimes we latch on to these moments, these people, and the feelings that come along with them. Not every compliment will lead to a kiss. Not every dance party will lead to an epic hook up. Not every text will lead to an "I do". This is the tricky part. Sometimes we hold on long after the moment has past. The ego is a hungry and greedy beast. We keep going back to the source, craving more. I think that moment is the key. It is when we need to let go and look forward. Express gratitude for the experience, and trust if there is to be more of it, it will seek you. Know what you gained in that singular moment has wealth, and that wanting more will not serve you. The Universe totally has our back. We just need to be clear in what we are asking for. Give your attention to that desired feeling, as that is what you want more of. Focusing on the hunt, or the lack, will only yield more frustration and insecurity. As the oh so handsome Preston Smiles has said, "don't want people who don't want you."
I love the chase. It part of why I love to run and why I love the asana practice of yoga (my handstand is so close I could scream). It is why I love to learn new things, and why I am always seeking more. I recently discovered my moon sign is Aries and it has me nailed to a T. My sun sign is Capricorn and my rising sign is Taurus. As one of my besties pointed out, "you can't get more bullish than that!" She is so observant and quite witty.
I know where that behavior stems from, but I don't believe it is important. I don't think I need therapy or self-help books to change it or fix it. I think I just need to learn how to make it work for me, and not against me. Because I don't believe we are flawed. I believe all of us need to use our unique experiences and strengths in a way that make us stronger, not weaker. In ways that make us feel empowered, not victimized. Fewer excuses, more ownership.
I am so thankful for this journey and for all of the amazingly awesome people who have been a part of it. For the people who love me as I am. For the people who believe in me. Who get me. Who know which questions to ask and which to not. For the people for have simply been there. You are everything to me.